9 Tips for a Broken Heart

I recently experienced heart break for the first time in my life. I had never been so close to loving someone before, so when we ended the relationship I experienced a pain that I didn't know was possible. Many of you have probably been there. Symptoms include, but are not limited to:

• Restless sleep
• Zero motivation to get out of bed
• Mood swings - one minute you are fine, then next you want to hide in a cave and ugly cry.
• Chocolate, copious amounts of chocolate
• Always wondering if the text you just got is from your ex
• Everything reminds you of your ex, whether it is an object, activity, song, movie, hobby, phrase, etc.

As I slowly heal from the heartache, there are several words of advice that have helped me along the way. Whether you are experiencing a break up, or trying to comfort a friend who is, here are 9 tips to help you get through the pain to the other side.

1. Heart break is a real thing. Don't try to force yourself out of it, or feel guilty for being a mess. Let yourself grieve. Eat a lot of chocolate. Schedule extra time for sleep.
   
2. Don't go through it alone. Be intentional to hang out with friends. Heart break is a lonely and disorienting feeling. Your friends can help you stay grounded in reality and lift you up.
   
3. Talk about it.  Make time to talk about your experience with others. Articulating what you are going through will help you get a clear picture of what you are feeling. Try also to speak with a better future in mind, focusing on why it was a good thing to break up and what you need to do in order to move on.
   
4. Bring your complaints to God. I was really angry with God in the beginning. "Why did you let me go through this?" "How come I am still alone?" "Do you really have my best interest in mind?" "Is believing in you even worth it?" Get it all out - God can handle it. When we come to him with our pain rather than run away from him, then we put ourselves in a better position to receive his healing love and mercy.
   
5. Don't hold on to "what could have been." You might find yourself daydreaming in the category of "What if...", "Maybe if I...", or "There's still a chance..."  Don't let your mind go there. Even if there is a possibility that s/he will come back to you, you have to move on. There is a legitimate reason you two broke up and daydreaming about what could have been or might still be is not good for your heart, mind or soul.
   
6. Forgive your ex. If your ex hurt you, don't let that pain become bitterness. Holding on to judgement against him or her will bring you down and hurt you more. There is freedom and peace that comes with forgiveness. It might take time, but it is not only possible to forgive, but an important step in your healing.
   
7. Forgive yourself. Made a bad judgement call? Maybe you went further physically than you would have liked? Or maybe you saw red flags all over the place and stayed in the relationship longer than you should have. Don't carry that burden, it will only crush you. Let it go, forgive yourself, and learn from your mistake.
   
8. Find an easy win. Eventually you have to step out of the funk and move on with your life. Don't expect to be able to immediately go back into that hardcore workout routine, paleo diet, or busy schedule. Recovery takes time, and setting goals higher than you can reach will only cause more disappointment. Take baby steps out of the funk and give yourself some easy wins like cleaning the house, reading a book, volunteering, or doing a fun activity with friends.
   
9. Singleness is awesome.  Don't let singleness equate to loneliness. Work towards being content with your solo relationship status. You are wonderful just as you are, with a huge capacity to benefit the people around you with your skills, talents and personality. The sooner you can be confident in your single-hood, the sooner you can go back to fully living the life God has given you.

Let's Change the Conversation

"Look at her, she seems so wonderful. Why isn't she married yet?"

This is a sentence I have heard many times, directed to me or people I know. The older the single woman or man is, the more frequent the question arises. The word choice may vary, but the question remains the same: "Why is s/he still single?"

When we ask this question, we are insinuating that it is wrong for her to be single, that at her age it would be better for her to be married. Her life is not as good as it could be. When we ask this question, we are telling every young woman and man that the better life is marriage. When we ask this question, we may even go as far as devaluing her as an individual - there must be something wrong with her if she wasn't able to marry, right?

The conversation must change. We have to stop wondering why good people are still single, we have to stop thinking that the fairytale idea of marriage is available to everyone and is the best way of life.

A single person can have a full life, filled with love, friends, family, accomplishments and a legacy. No spouse required.

Stop wondering why I'm not married. Ask me if I am satisfied with this life (yes). Find out what God is doing in and through me. Ask me what my struggles and gifts are. See me as a complete person who is striving to love God and love others. Stop reminding me that my biological clock is ticking. I am so much more than someone's future wife. I am a child of God.

Stop talking and acting like we are unequal. We are all equal, no matter what our relationship status.

Letting go of the Fairytale

Cinderella
Beauty and the Beast
Snow White
Sleeping Beauty
The little Mermaid
Aladdin
Shrek
Frozen

The story of finding true love against all odds, getting married and living happily ever after is embedded into our culture. As children, teens and adults, we have all hoped for the man and woman to find each other and experience true love.

As a girl, I loved these stories and I believed I would have my own version. I would meet my "prince charming" in college, marry by the age of 24 and start having kids by age 27. 

Then I turned 24, then 25, 26 and so on... and there was no prince charming. He didn't come. My fairytale dreams crumbled under the weight of reality, so I tried altering my timeline. Surely I would be married by thirty, right?

But as the imminence of the big 3-0 drew closer, I came face to face with the fact that I had it all wrong. All this time, I wanted a life that I was told I deserved by culture, family, friends, church and my overly romantic self. I waited and waited for this life to begin, hoping for something that wasn't within God's timeline for me.  I set myself up for disappointment and blamed God for it.

And then one day my eyes were opened. I looked at my life and realized it is good. I have a great job, a supportive community of friends, a good relationship with my parents, and have traveled around the world.

My life is amazing and I almost missed it because I was waiting.

So I'm letting go of the fairytale. I still want to get married and have a family, but I am not waiting anymore. I am stepping into the unknown, where the only certainty is that God has a good plan for my life, better than any fairytale ever written.